Apostolic potential

To be honest, I find myself identifying with some of the apostles in their failures rather than successes more often than not. Like Peter my anger can get the best of me and my trust can wane at times. I also find myself walking in the steps of Paul when My zeal overtakes my consideration for others. Yet maybe, to my own personal dismay, I also find myself acting as Thomas, doubting the ability of God or the willingness of God to help me in times of distress. When Jesus called from the cross," My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?", I can feel the words forming on my lips. Yet if I but close my eyes to the distractions of daily life and allow myself to draw into the quiet, there is the gentle assurance of his hand upon my shoulder and the loving encouragement and comfort of his voice in my ears. And I am reassured of his love for me, and that through my faith in that love I may come to realize the potential with which he created me. And in all love and humility I pray ..."father forgive my despair and grant me peace, that I my become the man you created me to be, your loving and faithful servant.". Amen